Thinking about other things

I know this isn’t good, but I needed to take a break from frying my eyes out [I can't wait till this semester is over]. So what have I been thinking about? A lot of stuff. They range from blah to blah to blah. Just kidding [not really]. Ok so, since I can not wait till summer vacation [yayayay], I planned out my summer, like everything else I plan out. Even if my plan doesn’t go according to the plan, which is mostly mine or someone else’s fault, it doesn’t really matter. Its all about the big picture. You think [some more lol] and realize that this [the-not-going-through] actually benefitted you after all. Alhumdulilah! But, its fun to plan and distract yourself for a long duration of your life bit of time.

Some food:

Hummus, Chicken, and lentil soup YUM. Oh and pita bread

Hummus, Chicken, and lentil soup YUM.
Oh and pita bread

Here are my short term resolutions [this sounds better than a "PLAN", which sounds more serious and broad shouldered]:

- Take that 5 hour driving thing and everything up to getting a license. InSha AllAH
- Get Married [LOOOOOOL]
- Have kids
- Travel somewhere besides from Chicago to NY and from NY to Chicago and from etc…BLAH
- Make edible food once a week. HA. fo realz tho.
- Watch ‘The Lego Movie’
- Have a great Ramadan Insha ALLAH <3
- Work somewhere for like a week, or more…maybe.
- Blog once a week!
- Rebuild relations.
- Bring happiness to people I encounter. Er, thats tough. My smile isn't so obvious. :/ [thats actually how my smile looks in real life...]
- Enjoy the outdoors
- Avoid getting sunburnt
- Then go back to Chicago. NOOOOOOO

I’m going to sleep. The last bullet point just killed my mood.
Peace out!

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Depression

What is it? I know that its when you get into a lost place and you don’t know where you’re life is going [if thats what it really is..]. Oh, btw I AM NOT DEPRESSED lol. I was just thinking about this the other day. And I was thinking about writing a post about it, but then I thought about not writing it ’cause I be mad lazy these days and forever [I always hear myself singing to that word now. Thanks a lot, Frozen. Its a movie]. What changed my mind, not that it matters, was that yesterday or before that [idk, my memory is fading. I sound so old.] someone commented on my last post saying that I haven’t posted in…cue music…”long time in foreverrrrr”. So here it is:

I was going to research a bit on depression…cause I have nothing better to do, but seriously I have so much to do. I hate it. I kinda, actually took time out of studying to write this post; I am not researching for this post though. Depression is a real thing, but what if everything in your life is there…you know, like you have a family, who despite how much you disagree with and try to avoid, they try to make everything the best for you. But, we humans are egotistic and we think what we do and think, is always right, am I right? [get it...lol]. So, sometimes most of the time, I am like that too, but then when things get messed up and people get ticked off and stuff, I have to step back and think about what just happened. I think this works for me…all the time, even if it takes my slow-self a long duration to think about it, it still helps.

This picture is relevant , right?

This picture is relevant , right?

Like last Friday, I was all lonely and blah, so I called my mom. I asked her what we’ll be doing for the summer [my mind should stay in the present for Realz]. Here’s the dialogue:
Mom: You’re coming home for the summer!
Me: yea, I know, but what are we gonna do?
Mom: nothing, just enjoy the summer
Me: I mean, like WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO?
Mom: Nothing…we’ll do stuff
Me: ugh, —— [some dumb stuff I said].
Mom: fine, if you dont want to come, don’t.
Me: ….
Mom: ok then, I guess I’ll talk to you later [this happens when I dont say anything]

Then that night I thought about it, and what if I thought boredom would take over back home for the summer, that shouldn’t stop me from enjoying every moment…I cheered up, made some duas to not be all negative and “depressed” about my life [which is actually pretty sweet! Alhumdulilah]. I was just being a brat. Everyone should be thankful for their current situation, because it is a blessing. I then wanted to call my mom to say sorry and say how much of a baby I was being [well not that part cause I was embarrassed too]. But, my family members were probably sleeping, so I left a text, “Salamalakum, r u guys awake…i miss you”. I looked at my phone the next morning and my mom had sent me a snapchat of her and my two brothers smiling, with a caption “well we dont”….I’m joking hahaha, it actually said, “We miss you too!!”. I guess I was forgiven. So the point is, you can change the state of your mind and call onto Allah, the one who knows whats going on in your mind, and ask for help. Find happiness and comfort in anything…like being alive maybe…or by having so much that you have…or by BEING ALIVE and whatever else matters to you. Make the best of every situation and you will find it easy to smile, even if you only have an awkward-not-so-obvious-kinda-smile. You’ll feel good. InshaAllah [By Allah's will].

And someone also commented that I should write another movie review…I was going to do this, but I watch so many movies; Which movie should I review? You tell!
-Peace out. Salamalakum. Keep my in your prayers.

Movie Review: Lootera

So, to start off the New Year of 2014, we finished the movie, “Lootera”. The title means or is related to a guy who robs stuff or something like that. We started the movie last night around 10:30pm [I think] and ended at 12:15am [maybe]. None the less, it was the first thing we did in 2014…finish the movie called Lootera, starring Ranvir Singh as Varun, and Sonakshi Sinha as Panki Roy Chaudhary, and a bunch of other people I don’t know the names of. My mom was dreading the movie; she thought it was going by so slowly, dragging its way into the New Year [too many New Year puns, I know. Its annoying.]. Anyway, I liked the movie, surprisingly. I will tell you why I liked it.

What I like in movies:
-Watchable aka no-or-less-than-usual-’chicorapun’.
-There was a story.
-Sure it was slow, but it played well with the time era.
-It kinda reminded me of me. yea, idk.
-The actors acted well.

Credits: Yours truly, eva626. [everything IS drawn to scale]

Credits: Yours truly, eva626.
[everything IS drawn to scale]


I suggest you do not read beyond this point if you don’t wana know everything about ‘Lootera’, because its *spoilers* time [haha, why does that sound so perky in writing]. So, if you haven’t seen the movie, go watch it and come back and read this post. The movie starts out in the old times; I’m not sure if they gave the exact time era, but it has something to so with the Bengali Independence time. One of the things I hated about the movie, yea there are a lot of things I hate about every movie, was that the heroine’s [thats what the main actress is called in bollywood or lollywood, if it still exists] father gives away the whole plot of the movie by telling her this fable [remember those?...animal stories that have a moral at the end].

I have problems understanding these clues at times, especially if they aren’t in english [yes, this is a Hindi movie, if you hadn't guessed it already]. Both the actor and actress, and side hero [Varun's friend] did a good job in their performance. The old man was ight. Both Varun and his friend had a plan and it worked! They left the father and Panki both looking like fools the night before her engagement. Sad for her, but also for Varun since he wanted to just leave his days of robbing-all-the-wealth-he-can-get-his-hands-on-from-those-filthy-rich- hooligans families, but he couldn’t do that to his ‘chacha’, who raised him up with so much care on the wrong path. Tsk tsk. Varun and Panki also experienced these shy, slow, and old-timish romantic feelings that were hard to let go of till the end of the movie.

Anyway, I liked the movie. Its not a new movie; I think it came out in the beginning of 2013, but, watevs. Why did I decide to write a review…because I had to get my mind off of other stuff. I can’t get myself to do the dumb stuff for school and I have less than a week left. Ah. Help. Ok, hope you all liked reading this Movie review. I can do more if you want, in the future. Comment below, like, and hope you all have a great year ahead. To 2014, cheers, alcohol is bad for you.

-Eva626

2013 and everything if not some-important-things-worth-mentioning.

Woa. Two more days and we change the 3 to a 4. I always hated that when I was in high school and the while ago [is that a real saying?]. I always had to erase the year on the heading of my notes with the smudgy tough eraser that clearly never worked. So, I had these ugly smudges, or scribbles if I was using pen, on every page until the March of the new year. What a mess. Its bad enough that I have horrible hand writing. That is actually going to be one of my new years resolutions. Well, not really.

Here’s some things that happened in 2013:

-I still love to make lists.
-There is a girl in my new institution whose name is actually Eva.
-I learned to use words like ‘institution’ in a complete sentence.
-I’m dreading the fact that I am officially a poor-broke-grad student without a life [the last three sentences aren't new though].
-My mother is the most precious person to me in the world.
-The farther away I am from my siblings the more I love them.
-I hate chicago as much as I love New York.
-There is a limited number of persons who I can talk to about anything, its because my views are so different from everyone around me.
-I get lost most of the time, but then I find my way thanks to Allah.
-I’ve learned not to care what society, people, media, have to say about my life.
-Islam over Culture and dumbness.
-Communication is the start to end confusion.
-Charity is the start to end hunger and poverty.
-It doesn’t matter who says what, it matters what is being said.
-I’ve gotten very unhealthy like the rest of the non-vegan people in America.
-I have a stern basis on the things I do, and the way I think.
-I need to be more patient.
-My brothers still think I can’t cook. That’s why I haven’t cooked real food in 2013.
-I still survived 2013. Alhumdulilah.
-I love to blog and I love when you read my dumb posts and I love it even more when you comment.
-I need a job and many Duas from everyone.

Thanks for reading this list of 2013 stuff…lets do the best we can to become better people in 2014. Lets try to change ourselves for the better and try to make the world a better place for those who are underprivileged, for those who are suffering, for those who are lost, and unaware of life and death which is to come at any time. Keep me in your prayers. You’re welcome for this public announcement blog post. I can’t believe winter break is almost over. I haven’t finished any of my school work or studying…omg. I hate Chicago.

-Peace out.

The right vs silence.

I think you people might or might have not noticed that I haven’t written anything in months that some of the posts I wrote from previous time [haha idk whats going on with my verbiage...see] are “protected”. Sounds mysterious huh…well they aren’t. I have decided to protect the posts that revolve around what I am “upto” and my “daily happenings”. But, I will keep my other posts public…you know, like the ones that are helpful to others or the kinds that can potentially make a change in the lives of others, even if they have a silly lesson to it or if they make you laugh [because I am that funny. no]. I have left some of my “best” work public as well [rated on the "comment and liking" count of viewers and on every time I LOL whilst reading them myself]. Anyway, that was just a small update on how I will be managing this blog from now on till the end of its existence [managing...lol].

Now to the good stuff. So for a good chunk of this year, my life has been…annoying. But, Alhumdulilah, I have reached the end of it. OMG, its almost 2014!!! [I actually just realized hah]. BTW, I will be having a ‘Farewell 2014′ post up, which yes, will be protected. And, if you people are dying [GOD forbid] to read it, send me an email and I will give you the password [but first I dare you to figure it out yourself]. So, about this post, which is being written right now this very second, well not for you of course, ah, k im done. its not really about my life entirely. It is about you…us…everyone who thinks they are “doing the right thing” or wants to. Its about that good person in you that is trying to make you a better person and trying to help those around you to be better people, no matter how hard it is.

I know that its hard to stop something that is wrong and to straighten things out. But, when it is, you should go for it, because it does really matter at the end…you know, like when you have to stand there waiting to be judged with your book in your hand [the Right hand InShaAllah]. Wow, thats scary. The harder it is to stop the wrong, the more reward [If God wills]. There have been instances where I had to be that person who tells a friend, a sibling, a special person, or even my parents that what they are doing is wrong or that they should do something other than that. Its really hard. It hurts when these people then get annoyed at you for saying such things and they make you feel guilty of how you are a “goody two-shoes” [I never understood that analogy, but it still hurts...weird]. Then all those moments and memories stir past you and you feel like a hypocrite and what not…ahhhhhh. At the end of the day, you know that God knew your intentions and no matter how mad or annoyed those people get at you, you did the right thing.

I am writing this stuff because in the past year, I had a friend who I thought was one way and who I thought was this “person”, but turns out that the words did not match the actions. I mean even if something was done, I didn’t know. How am I supposed to know what was going on? I wanted and even now want something to happen or have continued, but the words of others don’t match yours that person’s. Idk who is right and who is lying. I have come to a point where I can no longer trust that friend…is it me that is wrong? I have no idea…I think its because nothing is being done. So, you can see why this is an issue…I do not stand for lying. Why, because it is wrong. And lying is a sin. So, no matter how good of a person someone trys to be, and if they still lie, they can not be a good person. So, coming back to the title of this post, don’t do drugs do the right thing and don’t be silent about the wrong. Try to stop it, make it right, even if you have to drop your pride and apologize to who ever got hurt because of the people you know who did/said wrong. In other words, don’t be a wuss.

Oh, and we made smores!

Honey graham crackers, vegan marshmallows (or Halal ones), Any chocolate. Heat in oven for God knows how long. Eat!

Honey gram crackers, vegan marshmallows (or Halal ones), Any chocolate. Heat in oven for God knows how long. Eat!