Just do it!

My friends and I were going to a coffee shop, as we do these days, and came across a chalk-wall. It was pretty cool! I honestly don’t think about what I want to do before I die.

But like everyone I do have so many things I want to do, I just don’t think about them so much that I would make a wall for it. For instance, I want to go on a girls-trip-multiple months in Europe back-packing vacation, I want to meet my best friend again, I want to walk across a city (a whole city), I want to make my own ice-cream, I want to graduate and settle down on the island, I want to raise my future kids hydrogenated-oil/processed-sugar/dairy/meat-free, and have them go to my dream schools, etc…

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Some of the things on this wall are pretty humorous, and some are very sad and touching. Also, I am very tempted to call that number. In other news, I found out that my friend is to be engaged in less than a month. When I heard this, my heart dropped. I hate hearing it from other people. We used to be so close as you all know…and I was supposed to be the first to know. Also its not 2025 yet. I guess its just pay-back for when I got married without letting anyone know. Regret, all the time, contentment…I’m getting there. Thats what I have to keep telling myself. Well, I shouldn’t explain it here. I am not a good example for the young people here. Its whatever.

Some tips I can give to the youngsters, which I may have written in previous posts:

Kids, stay in school. Marry the love of your life. Stay grammatically correct, because uneducated beings are very unattractive. Stick to the conversation. The most unattractive man, is one who goes off topic and says irrelevant things. just to deem himself correct. I know. Its disgusting. Like really, YOU DON”T MAKE SENSE. YOU FOOL.

Follow these and it will make your goals “before you die” a little bit easier. Actually don’t listen to me, I don’t make sense. I disgust myself.

-eva626

 

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Living backwards

I’ve tried so many techniques of studying, eating, loving, and basically living. I have these phases every month or so. It’s easy to explain with food. Like last week I discovered the best thing ever… Halo Top ice cream. I bought every flavor at Whole Foods. I broke up the crazy purchase into two days. One where I used my one free delivery that Whole  Foods offer via instaCart (not sponsored. Idk why I had to say this lol I wish I was sponsored by [insert Simba voiceover: someone anyone) cause I’m savy and stupid like that; the second was when i went to Whole Foods myself in response to me thinking, ‘oh shoot, I don’t have any vegetables’. I had frozen ones still in the freezer with a bunch of other food my mind chose to block out. I went, I saw, I went bankrupt. I literally bought all the flavors and had 1.5 pints of it everyday. Now I have to resort to real food, since I ate the last half of a pint this morning for breakfast. I told this girl about my breakfast and she said what I did was ‘serious #goals’. Like wth, people need to be more practical and tell me to stop being a maniac.

Anyway, that phase is done just because it has to be. The other is about my studying habits… or not studying habits. Is this post getting too lengthy? If it is, leave [LOL why does that sound mean]. I used to be a freak about studying while I was in high school. Then this carried itself into undergrad, until my planning-ahead-OCD and some physical/mental issues I was going through took a toll on my ‘capabilities’ aka I didn’t give s&!@ [pardon my English. Don’t correct my sayings].

Then miraculously, came grad school and I started taking notes on how other people around me studied. I started doing what they did, which was studying every subject everyday and ace-ing every exam. Yea that didn’t work for me so I went back to doing what I do best, as all you lovely strangers already know. Procrastinate. It works for me so if you see me typing away on my phone during that one class that requires attendance, it’s because I’m building up my anxiety till two days before the exam.

Btw follow me on twitter @LadyNPerson

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Is it really a secret…

So, I’m not a social person relative to most of the people around me at the moment, but I thought that by now I would have picked up a few things. One thing that I apparently am still doing wrong is that I mistake things that come up in a casual conversation as being just that…casual. I don’t know anymore. If I wanted to not tell people about stuff, I wouldn’t…but if I do, I assume they might tell others but it wouldn’t be a big deal since I didn’t begin/end it with “don’t tell anyone”. Maybe I am just bad at reading cues or something. Are they even called cues?
What the heck is wrong with me. I don’t know words. Ugh. Only, sometimes tho.

Also, isn’t it supposed to be a thing with having mutual friends…like if one person told you something, but said they told so and so something before they told you, is it not ok to expand on that conversation? I am so confused. Like, I thought this is why we have mutual friends…the same people who know the same stuff. Is it not? No, it isn’t. AHHHHHH. I’m still learning and I have learned not to say anything to anyone.

You know, maybe its a geographical thing…I need to do research on this. Somebody, give me some insight, please.

Oh, and from now on [just in case], I will employ my childhood go-to gesture of looking at my wrist/watch which ever is present, and walking away when people start to talk to me…about anything. Hold me to it, all you interested readers of mine. BTW, blogging is still a thing right?  Ah. OK I feel kinda better after writing this. Kinda.

-eva626

Thinking about other things

I know this isn’t good, but I needed to take a break from frying my eyes out [I can’t wait till this semester is over]. So what have I been thinking about? A lot of stuff. They range from blah to blah to blah. Just kidding [not really]. Ok so, since I can not wait till summer vacation [yayayay], I planned out my summer, like everything else I plan out. Even if my plan doesn’t go according to the plan, which is mostly mine or someone else’s fault, it doesn’t really matter. Its all about the big picture. You think [some more lol] and realize that this [the-not-going-through] actually benefitted you after all. Alhumdulilah! But, its fun to plan and distract yourself for a long duration of your life bit of time.

Some food:

Hummus, Chicken, and lentil soup YUM. Oh and pita bread

Hummus, Chicken, and lentil soup YUM.
Oh and pita bread

Here are my short term resolutions [this sounds better than a “PLAN”, which sounds more serious and broad shouldered]:

– Take that 5 hour driving thing and everything up to getting a license. InSha AllAH
– Get Married [LOOOOOOL]
– Have kids
– Travel somewhere besides from Chicago to NY and from NY to Chicago and from etc…BLAH
– Make edible food once a week. HA. fo realz tho.
– Watch ‘The Lego Movie’
– Have a great Ramadan Insha ALLAH ❤
– Work somewhere for like a week, or more…maybe.
– Blog once a week!
– Rebuild relations.
– Bring happiness to people I encounter. Er, thats tough. My smile isn't so obvious. :/ [thats actually how my smile looks in real life…]
– Enjoy the outdoors
– Avoid getting sunburnt
– Then go back to Chicago. NOOOOOOO

I’m going to sleep. The last bullet point just killed my mood.
Peace out!

You need to get out.

My roommate and people living around me have been nagging me about this ever since i moved here. The five words I hear every weekend, “You need to get out”. It would usually be six words, “You need to get out MORE”…but in my case, its ’cause I do not even get out. At all. I just go to class, to eat, and back to my room. Thats my life…oh and maybe random visits to the library. Thats about it. This time it was different, since I had to get over this week. So much stress and too much to think about. My grandma also passed away two days ago [May Allah grant her the highest place in Jannah. Ameen]. Please pray for her. Thanks. So to get my mind off of everything, I decided to go for it.

Its not like I love to not get out, its just that I am not a people person. I mean, I like company with one or two people at a time. BUNCHES of people make me uncomfortable. So when ever I ask someone if they wana go with me here or there, they ask, “oh, who else is going”. I find this offensive uncalled for. I mean, wouldn’t I tell you if other persons are coming [you read this sentence correctly; the word ‘persons’ is a word. Right?]. Thing is, I would go either with a couple of people, or by myself, or not at all.

I tried to change it up this weekend, and instead of not getting out at all…I did ‘get out’. By myself. Even though I hate hate hate public transportation [thanks mom for all the rides you gave me, everywhere], I thought about it and felt like it was time I pulled my big boy pants up and headed out to see the world downtown of chicago. So I left around noon-ish and went by train. SCARY! I made it though. Thanks for worrying about me for that second.

I went to Trader Joe’s, and did food shopping! I love shopping for food. Then went to Marshall’s to look around…I walked around the area and just enjoyed my surrounding. Oh, and I got this baby:

Half original with mangos, and half Hazelnut-chocolate with chocolate chips, frozen Yogurt from Pinkberry! Alhumdulilah

Half original with mangos, and half Hazelnut-chocolate with chocolate chips, frozen Yogurt from Pinkberry! Alhumdulilah

It was so good. Then I headed back home. It was a good day, even though I was constantly reciting prayers of protection in my mind, while-during-on-and-coming-off-the train. Then one of my friends informed me of how, just yesterday or something, twelve people got shot. Yea…

Next week, I am planning on going for brunch with yours truly…myself [INSHAALLAH]. Ok, I am going to grab something to eat now. Maybe I’ll even ‘jazz it up’ tonight and sit in the balcony and watch all stars covered in haze.

Peace.