Don’t wake me up.

This is about the dream I had this morning. Ok, this morning because I woke up at 8am to just use the restroom and then went back to sleep for 2 hrs. These were the best two hours.

I was invited to go on a week long family/friends reunion in some country not traveled to by any of my family/friends or me. We were all there. People who didn’t know each other, but people who knew me. There were little cousins, still as young as I remember them 5 yrs ago, and people who I see every so often. Everyone eating their petite appetizers prepared by me in my beautiful kitchen, part of my luxury home that had a patio/deck to an area of water led to by some natural stone steps. This was not even the highlight of this dream. All the little ones were playing, and all the adults were talking.

Even in my own “vacation?” home, I’m guessing thats what this was, since it was somewhere else in the world, where all good things happen OBVIOUSLY, I was still alone. I am alone most of the time and I don’t mind it. It only hurts when I feel lonely. I feel lonely most when I go back to NY, only when I am not around my siblings/parents. Its so sad because I used to love NY. So, I was just trying to be a good host and picking up after people, going into the kitchen and into the living room, back and forth, making sure every thing was intact, not broken, and also tidy. Then everyone just left to go out somewhere. I guess I missed the memo LOL. I was still cleaning and nobody picked up the “dusturkhan” [the sheet or cloth you put on the floor, where we normally eat food together]. So I go and grab the napkin to clean it off. I start the one end that is near the glass door and leads to the patio. Then I make my way to the other end, which is disturbingly more dimmed in lighting, now that I think about it. There is also a curtain on that side of the room. It sounds kinda creepy now. But yea, I do go towards that end and I see that arm [connected to a living person of course LOL. I read that line over and trust me this was not a nightmare. If it was, I would have either died and never woke up {not what I meant in the title of this post btw} or would have woke up asap leading me to not write this post at all].

Oh. That person came to my uncalled-for-reunion and hid from everyone, only to reveal himself to me! Great, people must think I am crazy now again. I move my eyes up to see that face. That smirk. “Hi”. Somehow I end up falling onto this person. I am guessing at this point we have stood up or something. IDK. But, I am a clumsy person in my dreams. I face palmed on to this person’s arm, making contact and I feel a nerve pull back, not from me. Yes, that mystery still has some modesty [insert dapper man with bowtie pretending to hold a plate of hors d’oeuvres up to his shoulders, with one hand]. The feels tho. I can’t explain the rest I don’t want to explain the rest. Anyway. I woke up and it was the worst thing ever. I wish this was real. Then I went to school to study for my final.

-eva626.

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Movie Review: Lootera

So, to start off the New Year of 2014, we finished the movie, “Lootera”. The title means or is related to a guy who robs stuff or something like that. We started the movie last night around 10:30pm [I think] and ended at 12:15am [maybe]. None the less, it was the first thing we did in 2014…finish the movie called Lootera, starring Ranvir Singh as Varun, and Sonakshi Sinha as Panki Roy Chaudhary, and a bunch of other people I don’t know the names of. My mom was dreading the movie; she thought it was going by so slowly, dragging its way into the New Year [too many New Year puns, I know. Its annoying.]. Anyway, I liked the movie, surprisingly. I will tell you why I liked it.

What I like in movies:
-Watchable aka no-or-less-than-usual-‘chicorapun’.
-There was a story.
-Sure it was slow, but it played well with the time era.
-It kinda reminded me of me. yea, idk.
-The actors acted well.

Credits: Yours truly, eva626. [everything IS drawn to scale]

Credits: Yours truly, eva626.
[everything IS drawn to scale]


I suggest you do not read beyond this point if you don’t wana know everything about ‘Lootera’, because its *spoilers* time [haha, why does that sound so perky in writing]. So, if you haven’t seen the movie, go watch it and come back and read this post. The movie starts out in the old times; I’m not sure if they gave the exact time era, but it has something to so with the Bengali Independence time. One of the things I hated about the movie, yea there are a lot of things I hate about every movie, was that the heroine’s [thats what the main actress is called in bollywood or lollywood, if it still exists] father gives away the whole plot of the movie by telling her this fable [remember those?…animal stories that have a moral at the end].

I have problems understanding these clues at times, especially if they aren’t in english [yes, this is a Hindi movie, if you hadn’t guessed it already]. Both the actor and actress, and side hero [Varun’s friend] did a good job in their performance. The old man was ight. Both Varun and his friend had a plan and it worked! They left the father and Panki both looking like fools the night before her engagement. Sad for her, but also for Varun since he wanted to just leave his days of robbing-all-the-wealth-he-can-get-his-hands-on-from-those-filthy-rich- hooligans families, but he couldn’t do that to his ‘chacha’, who raised him up with so much care on the wrong path. Tsk tsk. Varun and Panki also experienced these shy, slow, and old-timish romantic feelings that were hard to let go of till the end of the movie.

Anyway, I liked the movie. Its not a new movie; I think it came out in the beginning of 2013, but, watevs. Why did I decide to write a review…because I had to get my mind off of other stuff. I can’t get myself to do the dumb stuff for school and I have less than a week left. Ah. Help. Ok, hope you all liked reading this Movie review. I can do more if you want, in the future. Comment below, like, and hope you all have a great year ahead. To 2014, cheers, alcohol is bad for you.

-Eva626

The right vs silence.

I think you people might or might have not noticed that I haven’t written anything in months that some of the posts I wrote from previous time [haha idk whats going on with my verbiage…see] are “protected”. Sounds mysterious huh…well they aren’t. I have decided to protect the posts that revolve around what I am “upto” and my “daily happenings”. But, I will keep my other posts public…you know, like the ones that are helpful to others or the kinds that can potentially make a change in the lives of others, even if they have a silly lesson to it or if they make you laugh [because I am that funny. no]. I have left some of my “best” work public as well [rated on the “comment and liking” count of viewers and on every time I LOL whilst reading them myself]. Anyway, that was just a small update on how I will be managing this blog from now on till the end of its existence [managing…lol].

Now to the good stuff. So for a good chunk of this year, my life has been…annoying. But, Alhumdulilah, I have reached the end of it. OMG, its almost 2014!!! [I actually just realized hah]. BTW, I will be having a ‘Farewell 2014’ post up, which yes, will be protected. And, if you people are dying [GOD forbid] to read it, send me an email and I will give you the password [but first I dare you to figure it out yourself]. So, about this post, which is being written right now this very second, well not for you of course, ah, k im done. its not really about my life entirely. It is about you…us…everyone who thinks they are “doing the right thing” or wants to. Its about that good person in you that is trying to make you a better person and trying to help those around you to be better people, no matter how hard it is.

I know that its hard to stop something that is wrong and to straighten things out. But, when it is, you should go for it, because it does really matter at the end…you know, like when you have to stand there waiting to be judged with your book in your hand [the Right hand InShaAllah]. Wow, thats scary. The harder it is to stop the wrong, the more reward [If God wills]. There have been instances where I had to be that person who tells a friend, a sibling, a special person, or even my parents that what they are doing is wrong or that they should do something other than that. Its really hard. It hurts when these people then get annoyed at you for saying such things and they make you feel guilty of how you are a “goody two-shoes” [I never understood that analogy, but it still hurts…weird]. Then all those moments and memories stir past you and you feel like a hypocrite and what not…ahhhhhh. At the end of the day, you know that God knew your intentions and no matter how mad or annoyed those people get at you, you did the right thing.

I am writing this stuff because in the past year, I had a friend who I thought was one way and who I thought was this “person”, but turns out that the words did not match the actions. I mean even if something was done, I didn’t know. How am I supposed to know what was going on? I wanted and even now want something to happen or have continued, but the words of others don’t match yours that person’s. Idk who is right and who is lying. I have come to a point where I can no longer trust that friend…is it me that is wrong? I have no idea…I think its because nothing is being done. So, you can see why this is an issue…I do not stand for lying. Why, because it is wrong. And lying is a sin. So, no matter how good of a person someone trys to be, and if they still lie, they can not be a good person. So, coming back to the title of this post, don’t do drugs do the right thing and don’t be silent about the wrong. Try to stop it, make it right, even if you have to drop your pride and apologize to who ever got hurt because of the people you know who did/said wrong. In other words, don’t be a wuss.

Oh, and we made smores!

Honey graham crackers, vegan marshmallows (or Halal ones), Any chocolate. Heat in oven for God knows how long. Eat!

Honey gram crackers, vegan marshmallows (or Halal ones), Any chocolate. Heat in oven for God knows how long. Eat!