Living backwards

I’ve tried so many techniques of studying, eating, loving, and basically living. I have these phases every month or so. It’s easy to explain with food. Like last week I discovered the best thing ever… Halo Top ice cream. I bought every flavor at Whole Foods. I broke up the crazy purchase into two days. One where I used my one free delivery that Whole  Foods offer via instaCart (not sponsored. Idk why I had to say this lol I wish I was sponsored by [insert Simba voiceover: someone anyone) cause I’m savy and stupid like that; the second was when i went to Whole Foods myself in response to me thinking, ‘oh shoot, I don’t have any vegetables’. I had frozen ones still in the freezer with a bunch of other food my mind chose to block out. I went, I saw, I went bankrupt. I literally bought all the flavors and had 1.5 pints of it everyday. Now I have to resort to real food, since I ate the last half of a pint this morning for breakfast. I told this girl about my breakfast and she said what I did was ‘serious #goals’. Like wth, people need to be more practical and tell me to stop being a maniac.

Anyway, that phase is done just because it has to be. The other is about my studying habits… or not studying habits. Is this post getting too lengthy? If it is, leave [LOL why does that sound mean]. I used to be a freak about studying while I was in high school. Then this carried itself into undergrad, until my planning-ahead-OCD and some physical/mental issues I was going through took a toll on my ‘capabilities’ aka I didn’t give s&!@ [pardon my English. Don’t correct my sayings].

Then miraculously, came grad school and I started taking notes on how other people around me studied. I started doing what they did, which was studying every subject everyday and ace-ing every exam. Yea that didn’t work for me so I went back to doing what I do best, as all you lovely strangers already know. Procrastinate. It works for me so if you see me typing away on my phone during that one class that requires attendance, it’s because I’m building up my anxiety till two days before the exam.

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Vegan Mac and ‘Cheese’

So I don’t like eating real cheese, cause no matter how much oil, sugar, chocolate, and carbs I eat, real cheese just scares me. Its weird. So I used to eat Mac and cheese at school (up until high school really) and the cafeteria used to serve the most memorable Mac and cheese. Yea, its weird. Since I don’t like real cheese anymore, I needed to combine my macaroni with something…and pasta sauce doesn’t cut it. Did I  mention I don’t like tomatoes either (too mushy and eh).
Since I am moving back to NY for 6 months, I am forcing myself to finish all my food before leaving, so I don’t have to throw it out.
I usually buy two types of non-dairy cheese: a mozzarella flavored and a cheddar flavor. The first one usually finishes first, so I used the ‘cheddar’ flavored cheese slices (I think it was the Trader Joe brand).

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I know it doesn’t look appealing in the picture, that’s because my phone is out dated. For real tho, even certain apps don’t let me in (ahem, snapchat).

So here’s the ingredient list:

  • -hand full (I made it for myself only) of macaroni (any will do, I used whole wheat)
  • -1 tablespoon (or more, depends on how you like it) of garlic salt
  • -1 teaspoon of minced garlic
  • -2 teaspoons of thyme
  • -2 slices of any vegan cheese
  • -some nutritional yeast (I didn’t have any)
  • -a bit of almond milk (very little)
  • 1 teaspoon (or more) of vegan butter

Directions:

  1. Boil some water, twice as much as the amount of macaroni. Add the macaroni until its cooked through. Don’t forget to add some salt for flavor and some vinegar so there isn’t a sticky-mushiness to it.
  2. Add some almond milk (or any other kind you’d like) to a pot on medium heat and let it simmer. Then add the butter and garlic salt, minced garlic, and thyme. Keep stirring until all is combined.
  3. Add the slices of cheese (can use more if you’d like) to the milk mixture and stir. Keep stirring until the milk has evaporated and you get a cheesy consistency.
  4. Add in the already made macaroni to the pot of cheese. Keep the heat on medium heat. Combine everything together and remove from the pot once you get a ‘mac and cheese look’. Sprinkle with nutritional yeast for more of a cheesy flavor and a boost of vitamins. Enjoy 🙂

* Note, some measurements might be a bit off, because like my mama, I don’t use measuring equipment.

** Make sure to do your own trail an error.

 

 

Day 1

Ramadan Kareem, everyone! Hope the first fast is going well, or went well [depending on where you live]. I kind of don’t want to blog daily…its just so hard to open up my laptop and try to write something. I usually don’t post much, as you know, because I only do so when I have something to write about. I cant force myself to just write…its hard. Anyway, I will try. Its June 29th today. In NY, we are fasting about 18 hours, SubhanAllah! I hear in Sweden its 22 hours or so!!! I can’t imagine. I went out to sit in the backyard for a while and the sun on my cheeks was making me self conscious of getting sunburnt. I’m in doors now, and so thankful for the air condition. Some people don’t have this…Same for food.

Ramadan is not only a month to fast from food, but also from bad habits and wrong doings. I have a bad habit of saying useless things…which I am trying to not say. Gossiping is the worst…I try to refrain from it; its hard when another person starts sharing such things with you and you come in a situation where you don’t know what to do besides sound ‘rude’ and tell them to stop or let it go. I also have decided to stop thinking about the future…or worrying about random things like ‘oh how will I unpack when I get back to chicago’ or ‘oh why haven’t they called yet’ or ‘should I or should I not make cake…I ran out of brown sugar, WHAT DO I DO!!!?’.

Its hard to keep a clear head, but it can be done, Insha Allah. Ok then, I don’t have enough energy to write anymore. I guess i’ll start on cutting fruit for Fruit chaat now. Oh, and I won’t torture anyone who is fasting (including myself) by posting up food pictures for a month like I did last year.

ok Salam, Peace. Keep me in your prayers!

The Amazingly Edible-oh-I-can’t-get-enough Healthy Oatmeal and Chocolate Chip Cookies

I always trash talk my cooking and baking…Its not because I can’t cook/bake. Its mainly because I don’t like to when I make food or baked goods “healthy”, people in my home aka the family members, don’t eat the darn food. I usually don’t follow the instructions or the ingredient list for the matter of fact [haha ‘for the matter of fact” haha, I’ll use this in real life now]. But, this time, I did follow the directions…not so much the ingredient list. Its ’cause  I be cool like that. I fell short of the ingredients needed. Yea, so since I live in Chicago now, I was so confused on where everything was…so me being smart and stuff, I ‘thought’ we had all the ingredients, but we didn’t. Well, we kinda-sorta did have all the ingredients, but I guess i didn’t want to use them. Ok, fine, I actually was going to use them, but then while I was taking everything out to prep, I cringed and I tried to make it healthy…AND I DID. HA. 

Here’s the Original Recipe

“Chewy oatmeal cookies packed with walnuts and chocolate chips are easy to make, and your family will love the combination of flavors.”
INGREDIENTS:
1 cup butter, softened
1 cup packed light brown sugar
1/2 cup white sugar
2 eggs
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon salt
3 cups quick-cooking oats
1 cup chopped walnuts
1 cup semisweet chocolate chips
DIRECTIONS:
1. Preheat the oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees C).
2. In a large bowl, cream together the butter, brown sugar, and white sugar until smooth. Beat in eggs one at a time, then stir in vanilla. Combine the flour, baking soda, and salt; stir into the creamed mixture until just blended. Mix in the quick oats, walnuts, and chocolate chips. Drop by heaping spoonfuls onto ungreased baking sheets.
3. Bake for 12 minutes in the preheated oven. Allow cookies to cool on baking sheet for 5 minutes before transferring to a wire rack to cool completely.
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED © 2014 Allrecipes.com Printed from Allrecipes.com 6/4/2014

This is how they came out after I switched up a few things: 

My midnight craving has begun. Great.

My midnight craving has begun. Great.

Looks great huh? Since I don’t usually take part in such activities like, baking or anything really haha, I had no idea what 1 cup of butter looked like…and found out its TWO STICKS. Yea so, I replaced it with 1 stick and 1/4 cup of Greek yogurt. Instead of using 3 cups of ALL-PURPOSE-BAD-FOR-YOU-FLOUR, I used 3 cups of White Whole Wheat Flour. SCORE. I used parchment paper so I don’t add excess oil/greasy to the cookies; its also easier afterwards to just pick up the whole sheet of paper and lay it onto the cooling rack instead of individually trying to transfer them. Yea, I’m lazy, but smart. Maybe. Oh, the instructions say to have them in the oven for 12 mins, but since I replaced some things, I had them in there for 14-Perfect-mins.  You can refrigerate the batter unless you plan on making all of them at the same time. WARNING: don’t make them all at once, cause ‘even a lot of a good thing is bad for you’ blah blah blah, unless you have a lot of people coming over, then its fine. You won’t be able to resist just two. Thats, why I made 12 at a time for three days, cause my family and myself included, don’t have self control over good food, even though this recipe was HEALTHY. Oh, and I did everything by hand [haha i read this over, I mean not really stirring with my hands, I used a spoon and a fork lol…but, no mixer or whisk. Yea, this is embarrassing, but I couldn’t find those things, not even the measuring spoons. I used a normal dessert spoon for the normal-person-baking teaspoon and a normal cereal spoon for a normal tablespoon. I only found the measuring cups.

Ok, Happy eating, or bingeing on these cookies, ’cause you’re too cool for my warning.

Peace!

 

Thinking about other things

I know this isn’t good, but I needed to take a break from frying my eyes out [I can’t wait till this semester is over]. So what have I been thinking about? A lot of stuff. They range from blah to blah to blah. Just kidding [not really]. Ok so, since I can not wait till summer vacation [yayayay], I planned out my summer, like everything else I plan out. Even if my plan doesn’t go according to the plan, which is mostly mine or someone else’s fault, it doesn’t really matter. Its all about the big picture. You think [some more lol] and realize that this [the-not-going-through] actually benefitted you after all. Alhumdulilah! But, its fun to plan and distract yourself for a long duration of your life bit of time.

Some food:

Hummus, Chicken, and lentil soup YUM. Oh and pita bread

Hummus, Chicken, and lentil soup YUM.
Oh and pita bread

Here are my short term resolutions [this sounds better than a “PLAN”, which sounds more serious and broad shouldered]:

– Take that 5 hour driving thing and everything up to getting a license. InSha AllAH
– Get Married [LOOOOOOL]
– Have kids
– Travel somewhere besides from Chicago to NY and from NY to Chicago and from etc…BLAH
– Make edible food once a week. HA. fo realz tho.
– Watch ‘The Lego Movie’
– Have a great Ramadan Insha ALLAH ❤
– Work somewhere for like a week, or more…maybe.
– Blog once a week!
– Rebuild relations.
– Bring happiness to people I encounter. Er, thats tough. My smile isn't so obvious. :/ [thats actually how my smile looks in real life…]
– Enjoy the outdoors
– Avoid getting sunburnt
– Then go back to Chicago. NOOOOOOO

I’m going to sleep. The last bullet point just killed my mood.
Peace out!

The right vs silence.

I think you people might or might have not noticed that I haven’t written anything in months that some of the posts I wrote from previous time [haha idk whats going on with my verbiage…see] are “protected”. Sounds mysterious huh…well they aren’t. I have decided to protect the posts that revolve around what I am “upto” and my “daily happenings”. But, I will keep my other posts public…you know, like the ones that are helpful to others or the kinds that can potentially make a change in the lives of others, even if they have a silly lesson to it or if they make you laugh [because I am that funny. no]. I have left some of my “best” work public as well [rated on the “comment and liking” count of viewers and on every time I LOL whilst reading them myself]. Anyway, that was just a small update on how I will be managing this blog from now on till the end of its existence [managing…lol].

Now to the good stuff. So for a good chunk of this year, my life has been…annoying. But, Alhumdulilah, I have reached the end of it. OMG, its almost 2014!!! [I actually just realized hah]. BTW, I will be having a ‘Farewell 2014’ post up, which yes, will be protected. And, if you people are dying [GOD forbid] to read it, send me an email and I will give you the password [but first I dare you to figure it out yourself]. So, about this post, which is being written right now this very second, well not for you of course, ah, k im done. its not really about my life entirely. It is about you…us…everyone who thinks they are “doing the right thing” or wants to. Its about that good person in you that is trying to make you a better person and trying to help those around you to be better people, no matter how hard it is.

I know that its hard to stop something that is wrong and to straighten things out. But, when it is, you should go for it, because it does really matter at the end…you know, like when you have to stand there waiting to be judged with your book in your hand [the Right hand InShaAllah]. Wow, thats scary. The harder it is to stop the wrong, the more reward [If God wills]. There have been instances where I had to be that person who tells a friend, a sibling, a special person, or even my parents that what they are doing is wrong or that they should do something other than that. Its really hard. It hurts when these people then get annoyed at you for saying such things and they make you feel guilty of how you are a “goody two-shoes” [I never understood that analogy, but it still hurts…weird]. Then all those moments and memories stir past you and you feel like a hypocrite and what not…ahhhhhh. At the end of the day, you know that God knew your intentions and no matter how mad or annoyed those people get at you, you did the right thing.

I am writing this stuff because in the past year, I had a friend who I thought was one way and who I thought was this “person”, but turns out that the words did not match the actions. I mean even if something was done, I didn’t know. How am I supposed to know what was going on? I wanted and even now want something to happen or have continued, but the words of others don’t match yours that person’s. Idk who is right and who is lying. I have come to a point where I can no longer trust that friend…is it me that is wrong? I have no idea…I think its because nothing is being done. So, you can see why this is an issue…I do not stand for lying. Why, because it is wrong. And lying is a sin. So, no matter how good of a person someone trys to be, and if they still lie, they can not be a good person. So, coming back to the title of this post, don’t do drugs do the right thing and don’t be silent about the wrong. Try to stop it, make it right, even if you have to drop your pride and apologize to who ever got hurt because of the people you know who did/said wrong. In other words, don’t be a wuss.

Oh, and we made smores!

Honey graham crackers, vegan marshmallows (or Halal ones), Any chocolate. Heat in oven for God knows how long. Eat!

Honey gram crackers, vegan marshmallows (or Halal ones), Any chocolate. Heat in oven for God knows how long. Eat!