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I am…

So, today I feel like writing about my day. It was fine. LOL. Moving on… I had class today and the second half of class, two of my classmates had to do their oral presentations. Mine is in the middle of April…blah. Anyway, during their presentation I started to doodle, just so I don’t doze off [read: “How to stay awake during class“]. I noticed that my drawings are mesmerizing. This got me thinking; I am probably not so “Talentless” after all. I mean there are so many things, I think, I am good at, or at least feel I have the confidence to be good at…if that makes any sense. Because, I am Batman [I want a Bruce Wayne or want to be a Bruce Wayne]. I felt like saying that, since he is good at mostly everything…I don’t know why. Anyway, here’s a list!

What makes me similar to Bruce Wayne, the “best-fictional-character”:

I do have a few enemies..actually I don't think I do.

I have a few enemies..actually I don’t think I do.

-I am a blogger, anonymous for the most part, like Batman.

-I like to help people…even though I don’t help most of the time LOL…meaning I want to help people, like Bruce Wayne.

-The looks…lets not get into this. [Lower your gaze people; lol joking, I don’t know about my looks actually].

-The butler…I need an Alfred. For real.

-I don’t got the money, technology, or much of the brains that he has…but everyone can dream. One day!

Eh…seems like I am not really like Mr.Wayne after all. Whatevs. Btw, who watches “Young Justice”?

This post was such a FAIL.

Gender Hormones

“Lustfully pleasing to the eyes, and burning up the desires within the animal inside” -eva626 . It has been so many years since my teenage years. Those are the worst [at least for the philosophical people], I think all of you might agree. The worst part for me, was that while everyone had a change/developed in height, biological features, mood swings, attitude problems…I was the frightened kid in the center of everyone’s mess: called puberty. With such a great power comes responsibly. LOL. I was a late bloomer, if thats what people call it. Anyway, living in the ‘west’, you experience so much that might shock the living daylights out of your brown parents. The thing is, the ‘western’ thinking is to adapt to these changes and use them to your full potential. I do not agree with this. Why would you want to expose yourself to impress the other gender…People like to sacrifice self worth for so called ‘liberation’, which in reality is merely an attempt to get molested, if you think about it. I may sound rude to people who live their life the western way (obviously), but you really shouldn’t think that if everyone is doing something its right. Lets get into the “freedom” thought that most teenagers, even in other countries have adapted to…

Ok, so girls statically and biologically will hit puberty earlier than males. So they start getting all these things in their head like, “I need those baby clothes to wear to school!” or “I HAVE to go out with my so-called-puny-friends-who-have-surpassed-the-need-to-follow-rules-of-people-called-their-parents”, and the very famous one “I need my privacy”. Girls are annoying when it comes to the duration of maturing…this is the stage where they are the most IMmature. Urg. I cant believe I was once like this..thank God it only lasted two years for me. The transition is a nightmare…believe me. I wished I never came out of my room and just sat there watching saturday morning cartoons and reruns on the other days for those two years. Another thing is that while these ‘growing girls’ [LOL this makes them sound like Giants] were developing this mindset, thanks to the media and irresponsible parents, they were also waiting for boys to ‘notice’ them. {puke and cooties}

Here’s something far more appealing than the other gender:

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Once boys reach puberty, bad things happen! Being a part of the science part of academia (its not a big deal, I’m just a suffering student, I know, you didnt care anyway) males will only and only think about females. Happy birthday Human nature. That is why there are certain limits these changing creatures (ones going through puberty) have to learn about. Limits to control your desires, what you look at, what you let others see, what you read/watch/do/think about; kids have to be taught what is more important, life or Gender Hormones.

Its critical to talk to your kids, siblings, anyone who is cant seem to control their hormones. You have to let them know that they are wasting their time and energy…and actions come with a price, consequences. Dating or stalking the other gender because you just have urges and attraction towards, doesn’t suffice. What is dating…its an excuse that people these days make to try to get to know/touch/etc… the other person. BAD THINGS HAPPEN! Most of the time, the girl gives in because her initiative, subconsciously speaking, is marriage. The guy, wants to date because his urges are satisfied that way, one way or another, commitment does not come to mind, because males live in the present most of the time. Pre-martial relationships are NOT the real deal. Why do you want to ‘try’ out something you might not be committed to. Because its fun, bad experiences make good stories, and you will hurt one another’s feelings, leave a scar on them so they suffer their whole life. Congratulations.

The way to control this problem…To Be Continued.

Private and Confidential

There was a point in my life where I had to change a few of my posts to private because I had tracked down a stalker. But I think I scared him/her away LOL. Sorry if you are still here. Now everything on this blog is public. I always had issues with sharing my personal life with people, be it family, friends, teachers, you guys, people on my Facebook and Twitter…yea. I love being anonymous here because at least I can share my general thoughts that might have to do something with the real me, without anyone actually knowing who I am. It might confuse some people because they don’t know my past or present. I am  fine with that. The main reason I blog is to waste time write out what I am thinking about without expecting advice from people. I just want someone to listen sometimes, even if it is you, who I don’t even know. Sometimes i feel that bloggers are more real than the real people I know.

Problems with sharing things with certain types of people:

-Parent: I tried this actually and sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn’t. The problem with this is that parents do care, a lot, but they care too much. They will make a big deal about it because they care for you A LOT. If you don’t like their response, you should just keep quiet and ponder on why they answered in such a way. There is always a good reason because they care A WHOLE LOT. lol. And so this leads them to tell the older child…aka my nemesis sister [LOL a bit exaggerated]; this makes me uncomfortable.

-Friend: I don’t have any friends.

LOL joking. This here is also a problem…well, it kinda depends on what kind of a friend they are. If they are the opposite gender type of friend, they will think you are crazy. Don’t share your girl feelings with guys and viceversa. Biology makes it so that the other wont really understand what you are feeling. Of course there are exceptions, but to stay on the safe side…I would pass. Also, I am a girl [haha I know] and telling friends who are females doesn’t help. They’d just nod and agree with you, which isn’t a good thing because you are still stuck in the dilemma.

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Sometimes I need to be alone with a mug of chai.

-Relative: Don’t do it, even if they are your cousins, because your story will definitely reach other people. First, it will be transferred to their close cousins, then their mom’s, who are most probably your mom’s sister, and then your mom will know…. None the less before your mom knows it will reach every Raza.com member around the world.

-Sibling: Some of us have really close ties with our siblings or a particular one, so its easy to spill the beans (purposely) and share your issues. But then there are families like mine, where we cringe when one of us shares their inner thoughts. The environment that some cultures have created is so messed up. You can’t share anything personal with your siblings. It might be because the headline will reach the parents or because you might just be too embarrassed, since your dealing with serious critics. But we trust our siblings more than others; the good thing here is that what happens in the neutral family stays inside. This might be the second best option after the last one below.

-Blog: Its simple, but sometimes indirect. Its kinda risky though, since if someone catches on, they might be offended. You shouldn’t want to offend people. So, think, think, write, re-read, think, then publish.

-The one you can always trust is God.

#Truthis Ya’ll are just ignorant, son.

Sorry for the tempting who-ever-talks-like-this blog post title. Hash-tagging, or number signs in front of words without spaces, should be limited to twitter/tweets. The word ‘Ya’ll’ should never be used out side of the southern deserted areas, and is unacceptable within my hearing range. However, calling people ‘son’ is ok [LOL]. Moving on, I have actually heard many statements, questions, and sayings that are just dumb. People have to open up books or the internet and try to learn stuff, like why certain people do certain things…Yea, I am talking about the ignorant people who come in contact with Islam in some way or another.

Ignorance is not bliss. Its laziness, dumb, embarrassing, and you’re not being an active learner while living the life you were given. Life is not all fun and games…there are things  you have to look into. You were given a brain, so use it. Hmmm, there has to be a way not to sound as harsh as I do right now. Anyway, I have heard or saw people using such statements/words/questions concerning Islam without thinking:

1- “That thing is so pretty on you, but it must be very hard for your women.”: Its called a “Hijab” and is worn to protect the female’s beauty and modesty because in Islam, females are pearls that should be hidden and not be shown to the world so random people can drool over her [directing people with dirty minds]. Its a form of protection God has told females to hold for their own benefit. This way she can display her thoughts, ideas and actions before her beauty. Its an honor. Its not hard…its not oppression lol. I don’t understand how ‘liberation’ or ‘modernism’ is to take off all your clothes, & roam around half naked in front of everyone…then shouldn’t naked animals be the most advanced species? Some people just don’t get it. The point was, women in Islam are supposed to cover themselves (as did Mary (May God be pleased with her), mother of Jesus (May God be pleased with Him) and all the other modest women in history) so that they are liberated from the social pressures around them. DUH.

2- “That terrorist.”: terrorist – a radical who employs terror as a political weapon; usually organizes with other terrorists in small cells; often uses religion as a cover for terrorist activities. And the Arabic word salaam (سلام) (“peace”) has the same root as the word Islam., meaning submission to the One God. Total opposites; enough said. In Islam a person cannot take another’s life, let alone their own. Only God gives life and gives death.

3- “How can you believe in a God that discourages homosexuality?”: Warning, I know this may be a sensitive topic to some as displayed by society now-a-days, but I just have to say this. Its not real, or humane. Just cause society/media/fashion industry/celebs encourage such things, it doesn’t make them right…think about it logically. Even in a scientific sense, why would evolution turn to a point where it would just randomly make up a few kinks and stop its own process. Don’t attack me just yet, first watch this VIDEO. I know many of you have already made up your mind before you might click the video link…its whatever, if you want to remain in ignorance. Btw, you not supposed hate or dislike any type of people; people are people, you can’t not like them for their way of living life, Islam doesn’t teach that. I was talking about the act, not people.

4- “Why would you want to live your life following a certain way of life, when you can make up your own.”: And you are also arrogant and selfish. First, think about who gave you this life so you can live it…stop using it as your ‘own’, cause its not yours. You were put on this earth, given such favors for a reason. If someone were to give you something and you had to return it to them at the end, wouldn’t you treat that ‘borrowed’ possession as how they told you to?

Hopefully, everyone here still likes me LOLOL [now please follow me on twitter] . If you don’t, then i guess you don’t…its ok.

P.S. Ramadan ended a few days ago and Eid was awesome!

I made this vanilla cake with peanut butter icing for Eid! It was really tasty.

EID Mubarak to all you people celebrating it!!!! Hope you all had a great one…And to the general public, Happy-end-of-summer-2012! Hopefully we all utilized our summer the best way we could have, be it relaxing, learning and experiencing knew things, working, etc…I can’t wait to read what everyone did this summer. Peace out.

Some issues we over came.

Fasts are going well, thank God. But the thing that bothers me is how every Ramadan, the first few days, my family makes a huge amount of food! But then we always learn that it just is too much and we should care for the people who don’t have food to even do Suhoor (eating before putting a fast, before sunrise) or to break their fast during iftar. May Allah give them food and blessings. Ameen. Alhumdulilah, now we have utilized our time and amount of food being prepared. Now we are just eating some fruits, dates, with water. Also, my mom sometimes makes a small amount of pakorays [Pakora: made with a flour batter with masalas (spices), onions, or potatoes, or whatever else fried in oil], just to have a ‘feel’ of Ramadan. Yea, we are Paki. [Then after prayer we eat dinner and stuff.]

Another issue…was that we used to have a sleep difficulties (minor) in the beginning, since the nights are so short this year. After breaking our fast, going to the Majjid for Taraweh (late night prayer) there is only but a few hours to sleep. Then we have to wake up for Suhoor…before sunrise prayer, the time when we eat food before putting a fast. Now-a-days, schools are closed and no classes for us siblings, so we don’t sleep until Suhoor. We usually read Quran, or pray, or read more about Islam. Then, after doing Suhoor and praying morning prayer of Fajr, we hit the sack. It worked for me so far. But as the nights get longer during this month of Ramadan, I think we will be sleeping until Suhoor. Oh who cares about my sleep cycle. I made banana peanut butter cookies today!

My banana and peanut butter cookies! [simple recipe…just Google it]

Everyone loved them…or maybe it was because they were fasting all day. lol